Hey Blog,

Long time no see kan :) 

I miss u. Lots. True story. I always have these words, sentences on my mind which I plan to scribble on you but when I open you, all those words are gone. Vanish. Just like that. I wonder why. I guess opening up to you is getting difficult as time goes by. I'm going back to the plain ol' me, keeping things just to myself. Which is NOT GOOD. 

I wanna share with you a few things. Firstly, I'm so glad my mom raised me up to be independent. Throughout my life I was taught not to depend to others unless I really really really have to. You see, when I first started working in Proton, I have no money, no transport, no friends, no house. With the help of an old friend via sms, I found a place where I could...well, maybe not comfortable to live, not a decent house either, but it's just nice for me. I made new friends. They are my housemates. They might not be highly educated, but they are what I call, decent friends. Who were always warm to me, cooked the nicest food I've ever tasted, took care of the house, etc. 

It was July 1st 2010. My first day at Proton. I had no transport. But that is not an excuse for me to not to go to work. I took the bus. Every single day. Before 6.45am, I'll be waiting at the bus stop. I love going to work by bus. I actually miss that. But I hate the part of crossing the roads. They are too jam packed with cars, lorries, buses and worst of all, motorcycles. It usually took me 5 to 10 minutes to cross the roads. Have to be at perfect timing cus you see, it's a 3-lane roads. Both ways. Going back after work was the hardest part. The bus that I took were from KL. And it has many stops. Add the traffic jams, sometimes I have to wait for an hour for it to arrive at Proton. On a very very  bad day which is raining day, I waited up to 2 hours. Amazingly, I managed to live this life for a year! And now, each time I see people waiting at the bus stop, it brings back the memories. I regard them as part of my bitter sweet life. I do have tears each time I go back in time, remembering all this hard part. I complaint every now and then but I always say to myself, whatever happens now are actually a part of god's preparation for me to face the future. 

Oh...It's almost 4pm. I plan to go out. By bus :) Need to get ready now or else it'll be too late.

I'll see you when I see you!! daa...